Thursday, August 18, 2005
I AM GOING TO WEIGH IN
Well this week just went from bad to worse. My mum is back in love with her abusive Dh and has spent the week alternating between telling me lies, ringing and hysterically demanding I rush over to help her, refusing the rehabilitation I have arranged for her and the counselling. My aunty who I am very close to was rushed to hospital with heart failure, my brother in law is having tests today for bowel cancer and my GF says she is leaving her DH. We are in the middle of this major project at work and on paperwork overload. I was a bit of a mess yesterday and didn't get much work done after 4 hours with my mother. She is extremely manipulative and tells diferent people different stories to get what she wants. She then turns on the tears to get them to feel sorry for her and give in. Problem is she cannot walk more than about 2 feet beacuse of her arthritis and falls she had, but mainly because she refuses to exercise through the pain or to move around to get things working again. The Dr rang me yesterday and said "you know most of her problem is psychological." Hello I have had to deal with her attitude my whole life. Hence when I am sick I don't tell my children and won't go to th eDr until absolutely urgent.
Have to just be positive. I have had only 18 points a day and done lots of walking! I have planned my meals, and cooked some casseroles and soup.I haven't been to my formal training sessions because I cannot drag myself out of bed at 5.30am. (hopefully next week)
I came in to work at lunchtime after a morning at the hospital and sent my office girl home because she has worked really hard this week. I have told my DH that when he gets back at 4.30 we are leaving and going to get videos. He never leaves work before 6-7pm. He wants junk food but I told him..not for me. I will get him and Ebony MCd when I pick her up from work.
I have decided to go and weigh in at WW in the morning. I will have gained a little but actually have lost a lot this week after being so bad the week before. If I get it on record then I can feel good about myself if I have a real loss next week. So I am writing it here to make me go because actually it will be really hard to get there. I will need to take Ebs to Tennis at 8am then drive back to another suburb (she has an away game)for WW then back to tennis which I am meant to be supervising. I will just tell one of the other parents to do it for a change. I will let you all know tomorrow how I go.
Posted by michelle ::
10:54 pm ::
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