Friday, October 28, 2005
 WEIGHED IN THIS MORNING to put an end to this downhill path I have been travelling on. Put on 1.5. I did deserve this. I haven't even exercised for 2 days!! SO now I am going to try to eat 20 points a day, and take lots of lovely long walks through the countryside. Enjoying all the freash air should help get my head back into the right place. Have a great weekend everybody. I will miss you but hopefully when I return I will be the motivated Michelle again. 
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Thursday, October 27, 2005
Snapdragon
Last night about 10.30 we got a call from a client 3 hrs away. They had had a fire and needed assistance to get their system working as they operate 24hrs a day. My Dh had been drinking and has developed a problem with his hand so I had to drive him and help him to do the computer side of fixing their problem. Got home just after 7 this morning. Of course we had some bad things to eat to keep us awake. I have to get the BAS done today for work so may be here till latish and obviously feel like ****. Hope I don't pay the taxman tooooo much. We are now going away later tomorrow as my sisters Dh has to work this afternoon as well. He is currently fixing the boat so fingers crossed we all get away tomorrow. Of course I still have to pack so just as well. Thanks for all the lovely messages. I would never quit this journey and having a few days where I am doing the wrong thing will not last and I know that so please don't worry on that score. If I keep this up I will be gaining and I will get mad at myself but that will be only temporary. It will give Bri a chance to catch up to me anyway. The things I am willing to do for my friend Bri!!! I hope you all have a good weekend and I will probably need you all to slap me into order next week when I return.
So yes I am feeling a bit like a snapdragon this week...see post below;
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Wednesday, October 26, 2005
P****D OFF!
Ok I am really cranky now. I know all the things I should be taking on board but it is hard to stay motivated when the scales are mean. I want to throw them out. This week I have done the following exercise; 2 x kickboxing 60 min sessions, 60 min aerobics, 2 x 40 min dancing DVD, 6km walk/run, 2 x 60 min weight training/fitball, 180 min tennis, 1 x 60 min step class, 4 x 60 min interval walking. WWA says I have walked 60 kms this week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! On the eating front I ate over on Sat but every other day only 17 points. And my reward for this is to have the scales go up and stay up.
Yesterday when I went to my training group I was disappointed to find we were going for a 6km run. I hate running. Of course I walked half of it but very fast and ran the other half. I spoke to the trainer who said I am not eating enough for all the exercise I am doing. Yes I have known I should eat more but usually I am too scared to. And my tendency would be to eat bad things like biscuits or dare I say chocolate!!! And the fat me doesn't really believe I can lose weight if I eat more. I know I have mentioned this before and I have added a banana every day for the past few weeks but I still have my doubts. And as for the trainer giving me advice well she is young and skinny!! so what does she know???? She told me I am over exercising and then pushes me to come to more of her sessions to get my fitness up!
Yesterday I went to the gym and had a fitness assessment. Well that is what they called it..but did they measure my fitness and tell me how fit I am so I could feel good about having left the old unfit Michelle behind! NO. They wrote me a program for 2 sessions of weight training a week. When am I supposed to do that!!! They did take my measurements so there will be something to use as a benchmark for any changes that will hopefully occur in the next 6 weeks. BUT people lose weight with very little exercise.
Then last night at tennis we played and won the first set. Then it rained and we came in.When the rain stopped we went out to continue to find the men on my team had gone home without tellling anyone. So we had to FORFEIT!! SUCH RUDE MEN. The other team were really cranky too and yelled at us. After all when you make the effort to come out at night, travel to courts you expect to play.
SO YES I am P****D OFF.
Tomorrow night I go away for 4 days with Ebony, her friend, my sister and her family to our caravan for water activities. Have had major dramas with boat but hopefully I am picking up parts this morning and all will be Ok. Should be alot of fun. BUT of course I am not in the mood for being good and the evil me is entertaining thoughts like "just go away and enjoy yourself and the food." I am NOT exercising today!!
I KNOW THAT I AM GETTING HEALTHIER, FITTER, YOUNGER, SMALLER IN MEASUREMENTS, I HAVE LOST OVER 20KG, I AM IN THIS FOR THE LONG HAUL. I KNOW ALL THIS...BUT MY EMOTIONS AND MY MOTIVATION WANT INSTANT REWARD EVERY WEEK. THE FAT ME IS STILL THERE AND WANTS ANY EXCUSE TO GET OUT, RELAX AND EAT WHAT SHE WANTS...
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Tuesday, October 25, 2005
THOSE MEAN SCALES
Ever since Saturday when I ate a few things I shouldn't have my scales have been going up. This is depsite the fact that I have been having 17 points and exercising like crazy. I think the scales have it in for me. They must be mad because when they showed me a figure in the 60's I responded by indulging. The weird thing is that I have exercised soooo much that a slight over indulgence for one day should have been easily worked off. I know all the things I should think and would say to others! I have to just hang in there and keep doing the right things and eventually I really will be a 60s girl. But gee it is hard to stay motivated when the scales go up. Anyway enough whining from me.
Had a lovely dinner at my sons. He actually had listened to my plea and cooked my roast potato on its own and then there was beautiful lamb and steamed vegies. No bread, no dessert so low points. It was a lovely evening with a few games of table tennis and good company. It was quite surreal seeing him and his GF setting up house together. She moved in 2 weeks ago and I think his life at the moment is much better for it. Having said that of course my role in his life has again changed and I was a visitor!!!
I mentioned the hoypants DVD last post. I did it again at 6 this morning and still enjoyed it. It is called "the Hotpants DVD" and I ordered it through Sanity.(I have forgotten which blogger wrote about it months ago but thanks to them) A 40 minute workout which is a lot of fun. I recommend it to anyone. Warning though wear shoes and bra as you bounce around a lot!!!
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Sunday, October 23, 2005
ROTTEN BLOGGER
Just wrote what I am sure was my best post ever and blogger lost it. I have no time to redo it so "hi everyone hope you had a good weekend, will catch up soon."
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FESS UP
Thanks everyone for the lovely comments. Unfortunately I didn't deserve them becasue for the rest of Sat I ate..not total binging but things I shouldn't have. I was tired and bored and should have got busy doing the housework but ate instead. In some warped way I thought I deserved it. Oh well damage is done and over with. Luckily I confessed to Bri who slapped me around a bit and set me back on the path to the straight and narrow. Thanks Bri. So, extra exercsie yesterday and very little eating on Sun an dthe rest of this week.
The concert was great as was the packet of cashews I devoured while there. The music had every one rocking along. Thorpey and Clapton are old men now but can both really sing.
Shopping on Sun was also fun. We spent a lot, luckily mostly Ebonys, (as I am trying to teach her the value of money, an essential requirement when you have a penchant as she does for clothes from surf shops)and got her a new outfit to wear to the rock concert she is going to on Wed. Very ungirlish and not at all tarty as some of her friends wear.
When we got home she had homework to do so I tried the hotpants DVD. I only did it for 30minutes and was exhausted afterwards but it is great fun. I think I will make it a regular part of my exercise program...as long as no-one can see me. I was very unco-ordinated and had trouble doing a couple of the steps. I also definitely did not look at all like the dancers who put attitude and style into their dance moves.Ebony couldn't stop laughing whenevr she sneaked a peak. I used to be a ballroom dancer..in my youth...so loved dancing along to the music. It is actually very cleverly disguised series of exercises but I hope when I watch more of it I continue to have fun with it.
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Friday, October 21, 2005
WEIGH IN
Well the extra exercise paid of in a big way today with my WW weigh in resulting in a loss of 1.4!!!!!!!!!!!! I am very pleased with that.
Thanks for all the advice about the rats. Of course the men have been spoken too but in all honesty they are equally disgusted and have cleaned up in a big way. One guy even wants to bring in a slug gun and go rat shooting at night. Of course I told him NO!!
It was funny that some people thought it was unusual for me to have to handle this situation, rats/robberchasing, whereas I really thought nothing of it. Of course I was disgusted and I definitely do not want to actually see any rats of the human or rodent kind in person. But as far as dealing with it well you just do. I guess that comes from having a DH that is away a lot. I have had to do a lot of things over the years that some women would not do but, necessity is a great teacher.
It is Briony's birthday today so best wishes Briony for a great day and an even better year ahead. I am so pleased she gave herself a Birthday present of a good loss as well.
At kickboxing training today a group of us decided to put a team in to the Sussan walk/run in early Dec. This will mean I will need to run some of it not just walk so it will be a real challenge for me. Very exciting. Tonight my DH and I are going to see Billy Thorpe and Richard Clapton at the casino in the city. Should be an entertaining (and loud) evening. Then tomorrow I need to take Ebony for some serious clothes shopping as she has managed to outgrow some clothes. She is going to a concert on Wed night and of course has to have new jeans to wear. She is cranky because she has outgrown her "sz 6" jeans and boardshorts. As I pointed out to her she has grown hips over winter. As she has never outgrown clothes before she is not amused. Neither am I when I consider what they cost. Still a girl has to grow to become a women!! Pity about that.
Have a great weekend everyone.
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Wednesday, October 19, 2005
RATUS INVADUS!!!
When I got into work yesterday my office girl had been madly cleaning up the kitchen. There were droppings everywhere. Figured we had mice so I went and got some bait. Then she asked me where her lemon had gone. She has leomn in water everyday. I had thrown one out on Friday so assumed it was that one. When placing the bait I said we better check all the offices. I had won a hmaper of diet chocolate...checked that ...not touched..smart mouse I thought, knows it tastes terrible. Then in Dh office we found her lemon! Minus all the rind it had been dragged from the kitchen, past my office into his! and hidden behind his bookcase. B***y big mouse we thought. So of course we cleaned and scrubbed, decided we had to buy a new toaster and then tried not to think about it. On telling Dh last night he replied "yes there is a rat down the back because the guys don't clean up after themselves." By the time I got to work all had been unveiled. In the mens kitchen at the other end of the factory a rat (or more) has built a nest behind their fridge. There were enough papers to fill a garden bin. One of the men told me that for two weeks he had been coming in and finding bits of paper on the floor. Turns out the rat had made a little house, with food stores as well, raided from the mens lunchroom. Now it has started chewing a bigger hole so must be getting fatter. Then we worked out it climbed the wall, ran along the crane beams to visit our office!!! So major clean up this morning and bait laid everywhere. The mystery of the alarm is now solved because the beam he used to get from one end to the other travels past a motion sensor. Glad I didn't meet him the other night!!
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Tuesday, October 18, 2005
AEROBIC COORDINATION....OR LACK OF???
Woke up this morning with a sore right arm. I must have been hitting too hard in kick-boxing yesterday. I know one of the other people commented that it was obvious why my Dh had to go away for 4 days every week!!!
Anyway went to tennis to find I had left my skirt at home. Raced back home to collect it and then just made it back onto the court on time. Played in 25 degree sunshine. It was absolutely beautiful but also exhausting. I won my first two sets and thought I was playing pretty well!!! Then onto the third set where I was firmly shown my place. Absolutely thrashed by a women that must have been in her 60's!! She was a lovely lady and a great example of how to enjoy life when older.
By the time I got to work I could hardly move. Came home and picked up DS and did some gardening. Had to make use of the sunshine..then dragged myself to aerobics. This is about the 4th time I have been and I had to make myself go. Told myself I had paid the membership and shouldn't waste it. It was a lot of "fun" but very hard to keep going with all those aching bones I discovered today. At one stage we were told to pick up the weights and had to run with them while doing arm exercises...torture and hard to coordinate. Of course aerobics does not just involve the body..no....you have to use your mind to remember which part of the routine comes next. You then have to send the correct signals to your limbs to make them perform the aerobic gymnastics requested from the instructor.The one who does everything at double time with exagerrated movements just to show you how it is menat to be done. And what do you have around you?? mirrrors of course which make it very hard to ignore just how lacking in grace you are. So while sweating off all those kilograms (I wish)looking like an idiot every time I stuffed up the routine, trying not to drop the weights, or better yet throw them at the instructor who told us to stop running with the command to do 50 lunges instead, I kept telling myself "this is worth it, you will get better at it, you will make it to the end," and then "Oh just shut up Michelle you need the energy to simply keep breathing."
So I am at home now feeling like I have been stretched and tied into knots contemplating the 5.45 cardio session I promised the trainer I would go to in the morning. I know I have to move it to lose it but isn't there a slim, fit, body double ( with a better body) that could do it for me?
UPDATE
Received a phone call from DH who is away that the alarm at the factory had gone off. So I had to go there to see if we were being robbed. Armed with my choice of weapon (my mobile phone) I raced there to find all in darkness and no burglars. Then I had to go through factory to try to figure out what set off alarm. Found nothing! But lost my keys. So not only had I already been up and down the stairs twice I now had to retrace mysteps to find them. After 3 circuits and much puffing remembered I had gone to toilet. There they were. Locked up, set alarm looked up and I had left lights on in office. Like a shining beacon saying to robbers, "come and get me." So up the stairs I went again to turn off lights. Needless to say when I got home I decided stuff training this morning and reset the alarm for a respectable time.
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Sunday, October 16, 2005
COMPLIMENTS
I have been receiving so many compliments lately that my head is spinning. (or is that because of my BP medication)
Some of them have been so lovely and some just plain funny. The best/worse two were being asked if I had cancer last week and then a male friend who asked "have you lost a bit of beef?"
It is obvious though that my weight loss is now past the stage of people thinking "oh she just goes up and down and up so better not comment" to where they are now shocked into commenting.
The other thing I have noticed is that my responses are changing. This weekend I replied that I was doing it with a lot of hard work and a change in priorities where I now found some time each day to put "me" first. All the discussion M started about this has really made me think.
I am succeeding because I am doing just that; prioritising time to exercise each day, time to plan my eating, time to blog, time to chat with my online buddy. Yes some days I get less work done, some days the old Michelle would have thought she was neglecting her children, the house is messier, I am not doing volunteer work, etc etc. Things have changed. AND IT IS FOR THE BETTER!!
I am proud of myself and I am less afraid that I will go back to my wicked old ways.
I now KNOW that I will be a 60's girl soon. Something I have never dared to believe.
I KNOW that I am so much healthier as well as fitter.
I KNOW that I am looking better and better and I still cannot believe that I can walk into any store and buy something without searching desperately through the bigger sizes.
I KNOW that I need to exercise or I feel bad so that means I have changed my lifestyle and should be able to keep it up.
I KNOW that I will still have bad days but
I also KNOW that I will pick mysewlf up and get back on track after them.
I KNOW you will all help me when I need it!!
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THIS WEEKS EXERCISE
UPDATE ON LAST WEEKS PLAN
mon- 60 min kickboxing- DONE 40 min gym machines NO
tue- 3 hrs tennis 60 min aerobics BOTH DONE
wed- 60 min cardio training, 90 min tennis DONE
thu- 60 min step class NOT DONE SLACK DAY
fri- 45 min weight training NOT DONE 15 sets staircase, KICKBOXING DVD instead
sat- 40 min gym machines 60 MIN WALK /RUN INSTEAD
sun- 60 min walk for diabetes. DONE ALSO 30 MINUTE WALK WITH DAUGHTER TONIGHT.
Missed a couple of things I shouldn't have and had one day with no exercise which made me feel bad.
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The walk was around Albert park Lake. There were families of swans everywhere. The babies were soooo cute. Melbourne is a beautiful place.
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Had a great time at the Walk for Diabetes walk this morning. It was a beautiful sunny day and my sister and I felt glad to be a live and active. Apparently this event will raise almost $3 million. Thanks to M and Cath for the t-shirt. Especially to Cath who emailed me the design at midnight after I lost the one M sent me when the computer crashed. I now want to go to more walks. (note my singlet was too big for me.Yay!!)
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Friday, October 14, 2005
WEIGH IN
Had a long boring day at work on my own yesterday and thought constantly about food. Ran up and down the spiral staircase 15 times (with breaks)for exercise. Lucky no one could see me huffing and puffing away. I knew I needed to get some more exercise in as I had been to lazy to get out of bed at 520 to go to training.
Then things started to go wrong. My Dh had problems on the job interstate and thought he wouldn't get home for his BDay. Then his computer crashed. Mad panic as he needs to do programming on it over weekend to go back interstate next week. Got it working and backed up all his files. Have booked a computer person to come look at it Monday. Think I also wrecked my portable hard drive trying to back up! Left work late to have my sister ring me to tell me her car had broken down so they wouldn't be able to come. Dh arrived home at 730 and my DS went and got the fish and chips. I had 3 steamed dim sims and no chips and no birthday cake. We had a nice family time for a couple of hours watching motor bike DVDS and having a laugh. Very proud of myself. Did the kickboxing DVD and went to bed. Then got up at 6 and went for my walk. Weighed in and lost 600g. I am very pleased with that as this week I have had a few little slip ups and had a few snacks I shouldn't have. My motivation has also been slipping a bit. Tonight we are going to a restaurant for the Birthday Celebration with friends so hopefully I handle that well for a balanced weekend of eating. Tomorrow I am doing the Walk for Diabetes with my sister and will be joined in spirit with M and Mary and the other bloggers. Should be fun. Have a great weekend everyone.
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Thursday, October 13, 2005
THAT OLD CYCLE!!
Motivation seems to have flown out the window this week. Hopefully it will fly back in soon. I am not sure why it has disappeared. Possibly PMT as I have noticed this year that with the onset of menopause I seem to feel quite down every 4-6 weeks. I think a big part of it is that I am simply very tired. I have been exercising like a mad woman, work has been very stressful with this major project, with DH away every week I have an extra load to carry at work, problems with mum, kids growing up, trying to keep on top of housework while working long hours...nothing really critical or abnormal...just culminating in me being apathetic. I have been good with tracking for most of the week with just a few treats I should not have had. Haven't exercised for 2 days which makes me feel "blah" Anyway this has happened before and will happen again and if I just hang in there I will bounce back. I need to remember the positives. I have lost 20k. I have bought smaller clothes, I am healthier, I usually enjoy my exercise, and I have made new friends. ALL pluses!!
On the good side I wore a shirt today I haven't worn before. I bought it 6 months ago at a sale and it was too small. I put it on and Ebs said "you look nice." I replied that it was too small. Her answer was "no mum you are just used to wearing big things. It is fitted and looks nice." Then I felt cranky because the pants I was wearing were too tight. I thought Oh no see what 2 days no exercise does? Then I remembered. I had to look in a mirror for the evidence but I had taken them in with two darts from the waist down the bum area!! Thank goodness.
Today is my Dh birthday. He is interstate but will be home tonight for a family dinner. He wants takeaway and not any healthy kind but fish and chips. He will be too tired to go out and we are going to a restaurant tomorrow night with friends for the 2 boys shared birthdays. My sister is coming over to join us and she is on WW too so I guess the two of us will be sharing steamed dim sims while the rest eat the disgusting fatty fish and chips!! I have scrubbed my house from top to bottom (well actually missed quite a few places in the middle) so it will look presentable tonight. Maybe why I am so tired...shouldn't wash floors at 3am I guess.
Anyway I weigh in in the morning so will report back here on how I went an dwhetehr I resisted the temptation of dinner tonight. Hopefully I will also find some time to do some exercise and that might help me to feel I deserve to lose weight.
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Tuesday, October 11, 2005
THE BIRTHDAY DINNER
Dinner on Monday night was a huge success in more ways than one. The food was absolutely delicious and I am sure very fattening but worth every calorie. I had snacked a bit during the day so my plan only worked partly. I also had half a dessert. I just couldn't resist the temptation. I have exercised vigorously since though.
We were all nervous about meeting the G/f parents for the first time but they were lovely. We chatted easily all night and really enjoyed ourselves. I think we passed muster as well. The kids were very pleased at the end of the night and I even got a cuddle from Trenton as a Thankyou.
I wore my new necklace that I bought myself after weigh in on Sat to celebrate losing 20kg. Excuse the photo but it is hard to take a photo of yourself!!
Anyway had a great night and every one was happy so I am pleased with that.
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Sunday, October 09, 2005
SOME WISE WORDS
"The brighest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures & heartaches."
I think this says so much to me; I am moving forwards and it has meant a lot of letting go of things in my past. Before I used them as excuses and comfort ate. Now I know I need to deal with them as they happen then put them behind me and move forward.
It is wonderful today, the sun is shining I am going for a walk later with Jodie and so many people are on track and being positive. Lets keep it up and be slim for christmas.
My DS2 is 20 years old today. It does not make me feel old but just a little sad that he is growing up so quickly. We are going out to dinner tonight to an italian restaurant and meeting his G/F parents for the first time. Should be interesting. I am admitting in advance that I will be eating what I like. No alcohol(no scarifice as I don't drink it) or soft drink, no dessert but a main meal that will be yummy and probably fattening. I have been to kickboxing this morning and will only eat small amounts during the day to compensate a little. So I won't be failing when I eat it just planning it into my life. I am going to wear a fitted dress that I have never worn before and will feel good about myself.
Have a great day everyone.
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Saturday, October 08, 2005
20KG
Weighed in today and lost .5 which brings my total lost to 20.1!!!!! I am really pleased.
Then at training I was presented with my 200km t-shirt. That means I have completed 200km of running. Now obviously in many very small spurts but I am very proud of myself. I have come a long way since Jan when I had trouble breathing if I had to run on the tennis court. Now I aim to lose 2.6 and be a 60s girl. Unbelievable. I feel slim today. Yesterday I went shopping and in Suzanne Grae there were 3/4 length jeans. They only had an 18 or a 14. I took the 14 to try and thought I may not be able to get them on and will have to ask them to get a 16 from another shop. Well they fitted. They are still too tight to be comfortable but they did fit. The shop assistant came to look and I was so excited I told her that at xmas I was a size 20. She was very flattering. Today I took my g/f in to show her and the shop assistant remembered me. She asked if I was wearing them yet? I told her I wanted to wait 2 weeks and lose a little more so they would be more comfortable. She was really nice and happy for me. Then I went to Rockmans and they had a dress I loved for summer. I tried on an 18- too big. Same thing no sz 16's. I tried a 14 and it fitted. It was a fitted dress as well not a sack shape. I am soooo excited. Now I know I am not a 14 and in most shops still a 16 but thats ok I am getting there despite my doubts recently. Have I said this already I feel slim today!!!!! Isn't it amazing how many of us are having the same experiences. Oh it is good to feel slim today!!
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Thursday, October 06, 2005
size!!!!!
Went to my weights/fitball at 5.45 am and had my butt kicked nicely by the group trainer reminding me how far I have come and not to stop coming to training. Then when I left she gave me the monthly newsletter whcih listed my achievment of losing 20kg. I was blown away. Of course I haven't really, or maybe I have by my scales, she just rounded up my loss for a good PR exercise. Still felt good. Now when I go on Sun to the 1 yr anniversary picnic/walk I am sure everone will say something (well the nice ones anyway.) Then mid morning I went for a lovely walk with Jodie. It really helps to have someone to walk with and we both agreed we probably wouldn't do it on our own. I am supposed to be working but only really putting in 50% effort.
I am in the office on my own and after the workload of the last few weeks only feel like doing the essentials. SO time to think!!!
For those who haven't read M's post she commented about how we all do this journey differently and it is not a competition etc. I admitted to her that sometimes I think "ohh" when I read everyone is getting into smaller sizes and I don't seem to be even though I may weigh the same or even less. NOT that I am not pleased for them because I really am. I feel that everytime someone is successful it is inspiring. If one of us can do it we all can. And lets face it we all now just how hard it is to do it and how much we deserve it.
Then I pondered on my shape. I am very short, I am actually very, very small under the fat, hence my bones do not weigh much and there is more fat, thirdly I have had 6 operations in the stomach/abdomen area and the surgeon told me 20 years ago that my muscles were damaged. So the scales just do not reveal the real picture.
However since replying to Ms post I have thought a little more. I am getting into smaller sizes. It has not been obvious because I keep taking my clothes in or wearing ones I had outgrown. I have bought some smaller clothes but usually going Xl down to M not as obvious as say a sz 14. And I will lose this stomach. It is already way smaller and I will keep at this journey until I feel happy about my size/shape, then maintain it. I have come a long way. I had clothes that were size 20 and even size 22. NEVER AGAIN
AND how am I succeeding in this? sheer hard work, prioritising and determination but mainly through the support of this community. So no it is never a competition just a shared trip where sometimes we give support and other times we are the receivors.
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Wednesday, October 05, 2005
GYM JUNKIE!!
Well the housework just got to me and I needed to do something else so I went and joined the gym. As I may have told you I had a 2 week free pass which I used to try out the classes so I went and joined for 3 months.I am committing myself to doing an aerobics and a step class each week and then visiting at least twice a week to use the treadmill and cycle. I am going to give this 100% effort till my holiday in Xmas and see where I can get to. I also went back to my training group yesterday and promised I will go to kickboxing and fitball/weight training each week. Combined with my walks with Jodie I hope to keep getting fitter, and healthier and SLIMMER! In addition as you know I was very bad for 10 days and ate a lot and stopped exercising. Previously to this I had been exerciseing like crazy and eating very little. I have trouble making myself eat all my points. Sometimes only eating 14 a day and then having a small loss. Well this week I have been tracking and eating 18-20 points which is a lot more for me. Hopefully this will stop me breaking and binging each 6 weeks which seems to be my pattern. I am trying to convince myself that I can eat more and lose weight so we will see what happens in the next few weeks. I will weigh in on Sat and should have a small gain or maybe a small loss as a result of the 2 weeks without weigh in and being very naughty. I am at work at the moment and to go with my refound attitude I have had a lot of hair cut off ( for someone with short hair already) and foils put in. Hope no one comes to visit. I will still be a blonde, Briony, but with some streaks of brunette. Hopefully resulting in less blonde moments!!!
I have asked my sister to join me on the Diabetes walk Margaret and we are going to do it. Wish I could come to Sydney to do it...maybe next year. Well I better get to work, and wash these foil colours out. Have a great day everyone.
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Monday, October 03, 2005
GREMLINS INVADED MY HOUSE
Last night when I got home from work, yes that dreaded paperwork has left the building, soemthing happened and I started cooking. I made pumpkin soup, risotto, chutney noodle casserole, veal chops and vegies for kids and rack of lamb for Dh. Then Dh rang to say he had been called to a job 3hrs away. He had been planning to leave for another job this morning (with my paperwork) but instead rushed in, threw clothes in a bag and left without eating any tea. I had to book him a hotel, arrival time to be about midnight, departure time about 5am.Poor thing! He also left a bit of a mess in wardrobe.
So I picked Ebs up from work and we came home to tea. I had been planning to go to training but couldn't find the energy. Instead I started cleaning out my wardrobe. With Dh away for 4 days seemed like a good idea. A friend is coming to visit on weekend so I thought I could give her some clothes, because I am not going to ever fit into them again!! I have a lot of clothes, in every size!! I love to shop and I try to look good. Then got distracted on MSn and settled down to watch Big Loser with Ebony. Of course I fell asleep and missed the end!!!!!!!!!!!!! Woke up and did the washing and then went to bed. Now I had never got around to finishing the sorting and had clothes all over the room. Couldn't sleep and I am sure it is because I just shoved the clothes over to Dh side. I just go home from work and I cannot believe the mess my house is in. I am sure I didn't do it!! Gremlins must have visited during the day. Kitchen and bedroom look like bombs went off and some stupid person set the ironing board up in lounge room to make sure I remember to iron tonight. Of course MIL will be coming tomorrow so I need those Gremlins to come back tonight and clean up their mess.
On another side I went for a walk with Jodie today so I have broken the NO exercise pattern of the past almost 2 weeks. it felt so goo dto be out in the fresh air walking, and talking. Much better than housework, or work work, or sitting eating at my own pity party. Thanks Jodie. Now I better go tackle those clothes again. If I throw more out it will make space for more shopping in smaller sizes won't it??
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Sunday, October 02, 2005
ABSENT AND MISSING YOU ALL
Just a quick post to apologise for my absence over the past 10 days. Had some personal issues that got me very depressed on top of which I was working 14 hr days. Combined with no exercise and overeating had nothing good to post about. BUT today is a new day and I am back. So I will be catching up with all your blogs when the work goes out the door, it leaves tonight, and then I will be well and truly back in the community. Thanks you for those who kept dropping in and leaving messages. Sorry I haven't reciprocated. I will soon.
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