Sunday, August 07, 2005
FALLEN OFF MY PEDESTAL
Ok Having just re-read all your beautiful comments I am now thoroughly ashamed of myself for this weekends binging. I felt so in control and so pleased with myself on Friday. It was a great feeling. But I lost that feeling Sat morning when the phone calls started. I msut have spent about 12 hours on the phone about my mum. Everybody rang to tell me what i should be doing to help her out. Were they doing anything???, No.. just ringing me telling me what to do. I refused to do anything and as that is not normal for me did I cop it. She left him for the weekend and wants him out of her house today. I was expected to go there and remove his belongings. Something I have done on more than one occassion. After the last episode last year I was attacked, abused and then abused 3 weeks later when she decidied to sneak him back in because she "loves him" so I refusd to get involved in the move and everyone is mad at me for it.
What did I do?? ate of course. Sat and ate and worried and ate some more and more... Oh well today is a new day and I went to kick boxing and tennis lesson so 8000 steps and sore muscles already. My Dh and DS1 have gone intestate to work this week so I am going in at lunchtime and will work late. (have to do some things for mum before I go in grrrrr) Plan to eat less and try to get through today getting myself back on track. Have not caught up on your blogs this weekend so look forward to doing that. Just have to be positive and handle these problems the right way without using food for comfort.
Posted by michelle ::
5:38 pm ::
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