Wednesday, June 15, 2005
DERAILED
Hi everyone.
Well I went to water aerobics last night. I was quite disappointed because the woman who asked me to go with her didn't turn up. She has done this sort of thing to me before so I shouldn't be surprised, but surely a phone call wouldn't have hurt. A big part of why I agreed to go was for the socialiasing. But I bit the bullet and went anyway. I didn't know anyone but that was OK. I enjoyed it but found some of it quite tiring. I had allowed myself to have a lovely dinner of Chicken Wellington so I needed the exercise to help work it off. Got up at 5.00am to go to my cardio session. It was freezing. When we started our run though I had trouble running. So much for my newly found running confidence. I had had a sore leg the day before and when I started running it really hurt. The trainer said it was my hamstring and I should try to run though it. Every step was agony so I stopped trying to run and walked instead. Felt like such a failure with everyone else running. Oh well a 60 minute walk is still good. Just has me worried for the Saturday time trial and made me feel such a loser.
Then had hassles with mum. She had her assessment today and refused to go to rehabilitation. So she is being discharged tomorrow. This means she will go home with her "hubby" where she will again sit in her chair almost 24/7 and thus she will again become weaker. It will only be a matter of time before she will be back in hospital.
Of course when I got home, in between phonecalls with family and getting told how I should handle mum, I sat and ate everything I could find. Even when I picked up Ebony from school I offerred to get KFC. This is after telling her not to ask me for takeaway over recent weeks. Same old triggers, same old response. Oh yeh and then I got my period and as I seem to be entering menopause it is predictably being a pain!!
Anyway this needs to be my one off day this week. My train may have been temporarily derailed but tomorrow is another day, another part of the journey. I must pick myself up and put myself back on the right track.
Posted by michelle ::
12:02 am ::
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