Thursday, October 06, 2005
size!!!!!
Went to my weights/fitball at 5.45 am and had my butt kicked nicely by the group trainer reminding me how far I have come and not to stop coming to training. Then when I left she gave me the monthly newsletter whcih listed my achievment of losing 20kg. I was blown away. Of course I haven't really, or maybe I have by my scales, she just rounded up my loss for a good PR exercise. Still felt good. Now when I go on Sun to the 1 yr anniversary picnic/walk I am sure everone will say something (well the nice ones anyway.) Then mid morning I went for a lovely walk with Jodie. It really helps to have someone to walk with and we both agreed we probably wouldn't do it on our own. I am supposed to be working but only really putting in 50% effort.
I am in the office on my own and after the workload of the last few weeks only feel like doing the essentials. SO time to think!!!
For those who haven't read M's post she commented about how we all do this journey differently and it is not a competition etc. I admitted to her that sometimes I think "ohh" when I read everyone is getting into smaller sizes and I don't seem to be even though I may weigh the same or even less. NOT that I am not pleased for them because I really am. I feel that everytime someone is successful it is inspiring. If one of us can do it we all can. And lets face it we all now just how hard it is to do it and how much we deserve it.
Then I pondered on my shape. I am very short, I am actually very, very small under the fat, hence my bones do not weigh much and there is more fat, thirdly I have had 6 operations in the stomach/abdomen area and the surgeon told me 20 years ago that my muscles were damaged. So the scales just do not reveal the real picture.
However since replying to Ms post I have thought a little more. I am getting into smaller sizes. It has not been obvious because I keep taking my clothes in or wearing ones I had outgrown. I have bought some smaller clothes but usually going Xl down to M not as obvious as say a sz 14. And I will lose this stomach. It is already way smaller and I will keep at this journey until I feel happy about my size/shape, then maintain it. I have come a long way. I had clothes that were size 20 and even size 22. NEVER AGAIN
AND how am I succeeding in this? sheer hard work, prioritising and determination but mainly through the support of this community. So no it is never a competition just a shared trip where sometimes we give support and other times we are the receivors.
Posted by michelle ::
9:51 pm ::
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