feedmysoul

I need to find me and in the process look after the me that I want to take into my future.
  • Reading other peoples journals has inspired me to try one for my own. Perhaps I can lose weight and find the inner me.
  • It is time to feed my soul not my body.

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    Name::michelle
    From::victoria, Australia
    I am a mother of 3 almost grown children working full time in our own business. I used to also do a lot of voluntary work. I am an ex secondary school teacher. I have been overweight for the past ten years and have reached a stage in my life where I don't want to put up with it anymore. I have been so busy being wife, mother, boss, helper that I seem to have lost myself. Coping with one crisis after another without complaining but always turning to food for comfort. I need to find me and in the process look after the me that I want to take into my future. Reading other peoples journals has inspired me to try one for my own. Perhaps I can lose weight and find the inner me. It is time to feed my soul not my body.
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    Hi I am back, I think!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    NO CRUTCHES!!!
    I HATE MEN
    SLOW PROGRESS BUT STILL PROGRESS
    SOME GOALS FOR THIS WEEK
    MY SISTER DEMANDED PHOTOS AS EVIDENCE!!
    CATCHING UP AND BUSTED UP!!
    AND A NEW YEAR BEGINS AND MORE SPILT MILK
    A NEW YEAR A NEW RESOLVE
    PUTTING THE BRAKES ON

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    MELBOURNE 30KM CYCLE OVER WESTGATE BRIDGE DONE

    • WE CAN WALK IT OUT FUNRUN 8KM DONE
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    • RUN 4 THE KIDS 15KM

    . : My Goals 2007 : .

  • REGAIN WEIGHT LOSS OF 25KG DONE
  • BE UNDER 72 BY HOLIDAY DONE
  • DO NOT BINGE ON HOLIDAY DONE
  • BE UNDER 70 KG DONE DONE
  • BE UNDER 67KG DONE DONE
  • REACH 30kg lost 65.6kg DONE
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  • 50 mins car to car
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  • 26/3/06
  • 40 mins car to car
  • 14 mins stair to stair
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  • 40 mins arch to arch
  • 14 mins stair to stair
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  • 43 mins car to car
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    Tuesday, February 20, 2007

    SO SAD!!!!

    Well what a week it has been. Feeling so confident and sure of success and sooo pleased with my weight loss and exercise I then threw the feeling away. Like flicking a switch. I didn't even have the excuse that I didn't know what I was doing because I did, and did it anyway. Started off with Valentines Day which was unbearably sad. My dad died in my arms on valentines day 15 years ago and his name was Valentine. Thing was it snuck up on me this year and I didn't prepare myself for the intense emotion. Coupled with the garbage that has been going on for 6 weeks with my mum, other family problems and a lot of stress and pressure I was overwhelmed. I had been fighting the things that were going on by staying totally in control. However having reached the milestone of the engagement party I then lost my focus. I have also been sick and this time responded by eating more. Once I lost control I then fell into a hole and told myself I didn't care. Being sick meant reduced exercise which then helped me to feel worse and made eating things I shouldn't even more tempting. These are not excuses but what I let happen.

    This is nothing new for me and is typical of this journey I have been on. I am disappointed I let this happen and wish I had recognised the triggers and made the choices needed to stay focused. I know my life will always have obstacles and I need to handle them better. I have been doing this more, hence the 30kg weight loss(LESS THAN THAT AFTER THIS WEEK), but I need to be consistent. I think I sabotage myself but not sure why!!

    I feel I am back out of the hole I was in but angry at myself for digging myself in. More time wasted and more damage to my self esteem. No one else to blame, though it would be nice if there was. Wouldn't be true though, the choices were mine.

    Posted by michelle :: 2:15 am :: 7 comments

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