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Sunday, January 21, 2007

NO CRUTCHES!!!

Well what a long week it has been with limited mobility and not being able to drive a car. Pain has been fairly intense but everyday there has been some improvment so helped to try to stay positive. Physio gave me permission to ditch the crutches yesterday. Even though I am now only able to limp around that is still a vast step forward. Went to work on Friday and that was so difficult with the crutches and stairs. Had to go to get all the information required from the mens brains before they left this week for interstate jobs.
On Saturday we had the wedding to attend. Unfortunately for the bridal party it poured rain as the bride arrived. The ceremony was being held outside, on a hill so manourverability was difficult. Part way through the ceremony they stopped and moved into a cellar barn and started again. The reception was elsewhere and was lovely but I found it difficult when the music began and I couldn't dance. I certainly have a new appreciation for people with permanent disabilities. The bride looked absolutely stunning and the rain was quickly forgotten as her and her partner danced up a storm of their own.
Sunday was a difficult day as I am moving my mum out of her house. Had many hassles with her during the week an dshe certainly didn't see that being on crutches should limit my ability to jump when she wanted something. Never once did she ask how I was but she did demand I do things for her! This relocation of mum requires feats that seriously stretch our resources both time wise and enrgy an demotionally and will still be required for weeks/ months. At least my sister and her Dh (who have both been amazing)and my long lost brother came and we worked all day again and seem to be making progress. Had to take things to my mum( the others won't go near her except for my BIL) at her new place and she again carried on and threatened suicide. At which point I stormed out, well actually limped out and dissoleved in tears in the car. She is certainly worse than any naughty child but to be honest she always has been. So although I have a million things to do for her I will do them but I will not go near her this week. The urge to slap her was just too great! I cannot believe how much I let her manipulate me and twist my insides with her bad behaviour. She has got herself into an enormous mess, including financially and of course just expects me to bail her out. I would love to let her sort it out herself but she is not capable and my conscience won't let me. She is my mum after all.
At work today alone except thank goodness for one man who has been left behind to work in the factory. This means I do not have to go up and downstairs for deliveries which was my main worry. Have a mountain of paperwork but with no one else there I turned up the music and just started wading through trying to be methodical and not panic. Also meant I could leave the premises to visit clients and even sneak home early with the phones diverted to my mobile. Thank goodness for modern technology. I am exhausted from all my injuries and I guess from carrying my weight around. On the eating front have hardly eaten for a week and the scales have rewarded me by going down. No exercise has been very frustrating so I started upper body workouts with dumbbells at home on Sat. Cannot lift the weights I was before the fall but I am sure that will come back. At the moment it still hurts and I am scared to walk but I am sure each day will be able to more easily. Actually got hungry today which is the first time since the fall so my body is definitely getting back to normal.
Have been reading blogs, sorry if I haven't commented. I find I can only sit at computer for a short time as my back and the rest of me aches. To all of you thanks for your support and kep onkeeping on. Remember this year we are being successful...each and everyone of us.
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