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Tuesday, December 05, 2006

FINGERS CROSSED

Well after a shitty week with major hassles at work I now have a week off. I faced the hassles head on today and feel better having had a major confrontation with a staff member that was way overdue. Hope things will now be better for both of us.
A week off......Hooray! WHY? because tomorrow I go for my operation. The operation has 2 steps. 1 to treat for adenomyosis and 2 to remove some uterine growths which will then be tested for cancer. This has been hanging over my head for some time now so it will be a big relief to finally have the op and find out some answers.
This has definitely affected my motivation. At times the worry has inspired me; hence the excessive exercise challenges and at others it has left me with a who cares attitude resulting in overeating. In balance though I have done fairly well with admittedly a small weight gain but it could have been much worse. I have tried to push all the "what ifs?" to the back of my head but it really is very scarey. As a very anti-medical intervention/procedures person it has also been difficult.
But life will go on and although I have little choice in what happens to me with this medical problem I do have the choice of how I react to the situation. I will deal with it whatever "IT" is. Of course I dont have to like it and may need to have the occassional or at times even frequent whinge to my blog friends but this is a big help in coping and a release I did not have in the past. Prone to keeping everything private and locked up inside me it has been great to have my special friends out there to listen to my moans and to help celebrate the good times. Thanks everyone! Fingers crossed for me tomorrow Ok??
Posted by michelle :: 11:00 pm :: 5 comments

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