feedmysoul

I need to find me and in the process look after the me that I want to take into my future.
  • Reading other peoples journals has inspired me to try one for my own. Perhaps I can lose weight and find the inner me.
  • It is time to feed my soul not my body.
  • Saturday, July 02, 2005

    I'M BACk AND WAY OFF TRACK

    Well hi everyone. I had a wonderful few days away with my children. We went to the caravan..it was absolutely freezing. On the Wednesday we got up at 5am and piled into the car and headed up the mountain. Once the sun came up we found to our delight that it was a beautiful day. I had to actually go back to the car with a load of jumpers and scarves because we were too hot. I spent the day going up on the lifts with the kids and then walking down the mountain while they honed their snowboarding skills. Then I ended up riding the lifts down because they were too fast for me. I had my MP3 player on and being on the downward lifts on my own I sang and enjoyed the magnificent views. I didn't go snowboarding because the kids were having so much fun I didn't want to take their snowboard from them. Also my son told me that the snow was very hard..as it hadn't snowed for a week. I realised I had this unusual feeling for me and it was contentment. Away from the worries with my mum, and work and yes away from my DH and enjoying seeing my 3 beautiful children loving life together I was very content. It was a day I will never forget. We then had a lovely BBQ back at the caravan and went to bed early. The next morning I stayed back to give the caravan a spring clean. It was pouring rain and not a day for spectators on the mountain. I cleaned and went back to bed with a novel..what bliss.. and yes with some violet crumbles!! I overate a bit but had been so good all week. I actually even felt skinny that morning.
    Then I met them and we drove home.
    At about 6pm I received a call that all mothers fear. My youngest son "mum I've had an accident." I asked if he was allright and if his GF was allright ? He said yes and his voice was very shaky. I was about 20 minutes behind him. I rang my eldest son who was about 5 minutes ahead of me. That was such a long drive. He told me he was on a certain road but I had neglected to ask which part and it was a very long road. Eventually we saw the flashing lights, police cars and fire engines and I was so frightened. We pulled into a side street and I ran up to see my two sons together . My eldest was taking charge and collecting insurance details. The GF was crying and police were everywhere. It is a very busy road and at peak hour the accident was very dangerous. The two cars were locked together and both looking very wrecked. My son as it turns out had done nothing wrong but was driving along the main road when the other driver pulled out across two lanes of traffic to make a right hand turn straight into Trenton. Luckily he was only doing about 40k because of the traffic. She went through a stop sign. They were all very lucky not to be seriously hurt. My son was seriously shaken as was his GF. I rang her mum and reassured her and then we had to wait about an hour for the tow truck. There were people coming up and taking photos of the cars..how bad is that. The other driver left without even coming over and saying sorry!! Then I drove everyone home. my son got really angry when I told him his car was probably a write off. He was so upset about how unfair it will be that he didn't do anything wrong but he will lose his car. He is insured but the value he will get won't be what the car is worth. He has just had a lot of work done to it. He insists that he does not want to be forced to buy another car!! Oh what a hard lesson to learn that life is not always fair. Then on Friday I had to take him to the Dr and physio because he has severe whiplash. I was supposed to be at work at 2pm to relieve the receptionist who leaves early on Fridays but we had to go and get XRAys and so I couldn't. I had her divert the phones to my mobile, something my DH hates. but I also had to drive my daughter to work because originally my son was going to do that. Then my son and I had words because he is so cranky he hasn't got a car and was feeling sorry for himself. Luckily he had some mates come over in the evening to watch footy and have a few drinks so he is a bit happier today. Of course we ate takeaway for every meal and since then I have not stopped eating. My daughter made some lovely chocolate spiders and we hired movies and bought more garbage for eating today. I am trying to psyche myself back into the right diet track for tomorrow but in all honesty it will more likely be Monday when I get back to the routine of work. Food is always a comfort for me and this has shook me up. I know we were very lucky and could have been visiting him in hospital but still it was a scare and I feel helpless that I cannot make it better for him. I am probably using that as an excuse but its how I feel. As long as I do get back on track on Monday. I copied this from Marys blog as it seemed to apply to me today.
    "Why do we fall sir? So that we might better learn to pick ourselves up". That seems to be what I am learning with help from you bloggers..to pick myself back up. thanks guys.

    Posted by michelle :: 3:44 am :: 9 comments

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