Wednesday, June 21, 2006
INJURED AND UNINSPIRED
Came home after a wonderful time in Brisbane with a cold but feeling very motivated. However eating became a bit poor as I felt incredibly hungry all the time. Did a small training run as training for the Run to the G but skipped other training as I didn't want any muscle soreness and I was busy at work. E came in to the run with me which I was very excited about. Then I heard my name called out and met Ails, Linda and Natt. I would have liked to catch up with them and chat but I was travelling with people from my training group so was unable to do so. The run started and within 2km I knew something was wrong. Got terrible pain in my hip muscle just like I had got at the end of the Mothers Day run. The pain was excruciating and I was sooo disappointed especially as E was with me. I complained I think for the whole run. E tried to encourage me to keep going and I seriously thought of giving up. At one stage I stated that that was it no more fun runs. I was miserable. Half way I got a bit inspired by seeing Scott only 1 minute ahead so tried a bit harder. It was also inspiring to hear Ails calling out to me. E was amazed that I knew people at the run!! I struggled to the end and completed the course in 1 hr 18 minutes so not too bad but I had hated every moment and my times were definitely slower than in my training runs. There were a few times I was close to tears from the pain and I was so disappointed to have E see me at my worst when I had wanted her to be impressed with how good I now was. What annoyed me was that in Brisbane I had no pain when I did the 9km walk/run on Friday in 1 hr. Met up with the others and thankfully got a lift back to our city so didn't have to catch a train. When I got home E and I pigged out on McDs and then I went to bed with chocolate for comfort. Oh those old support mechanisms just linger on. When I got up to drive E to sleep over the pain was worse. Spent the night on the couch suffering and reached a point where I could not move my left leg unless I lifted it with my hands. Skipped training the next morning and tried to juggle stretching, massage and resting with work etc. My cold was also adding to my misery. On Tuesday morning it seemed a bit better and my training partner messaged me asking if we could do 4km insead of 2? I said Ok I would try. Went at 6am and struggled through a slow run for 2km then admitted defeat. My left leg started hurting a bit but now my right foot was killing me. I have been having a sore foot off and on for weeks. The day was painful with the left leg and the right foot! Walked around with a ridiculous limp. Again resorted to junk food for comfort.It is unbelieveable how I can be so in control sometimes and then eat sooo much when I lose that control. Went yesterday morning to training and had to give up half way through as the pain was too bad. I went to the physio to be diagnosed with hip flexor strain in my left side and plantar fascitis in my right foot. You can imagine how cranky I was. Especially on being told it may take weeks to heal. So spent the day home from work, binging and feeling miserable. I was being so good and really enjoying the exercise so now felt defeated and hopelessly frustrated by these injuries. I am not allowed to take anti-inflammatory medicines because of my ulcers so couldn't even resort to drugs to help. Anyway last night I tried to talk some sense into myself. I did a lot of exercises suggested by the physio and have planned a healthy day of eating today. Just have to get through the first few days without weakening to get myself back into the zone. I am sure I will suffer from chocolate withdrawals today so feel free to kick me where I need it. Self sabotage has always been my problem. I plan to stay away from the scales for at least the next 10 days so I don't further crumble when I see the figures on them. Trip to the orthodontist with E this morning then work. I plan to concentrate on doing a lot of stretching and planning for success rather than wallowing in defeat. I will also try to get to all your blogs to catch up. Hope everyone is well and being a lot more motivated than I have been.
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4:05 pm ::
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