feedmysoul

I need to find me and in the process look after the me that I want to take into my future.
  • Reading other peoples journals has inspired me to try one for my own. Perhaps I can lose weight and find the inner me.
  • It is time to feed my soul not my body.

    • . : About me : .


    Name::michelle
    From::victoria, Australia
    I am a mother of 3 almost grown children working full time in our own business. I used to also do a lot of voluntary work. I am an ex secondary school teacher. I have been overweight for the past ten years and have reached a stage in my life where I don't want to put up with it anymore. I have been so busy being wife, mother, boss, helper that I seem to have lost myself. Coping with one crisis after another without complaining but always turning to food for comfort. I need to find me and in the process look after the me that I want to take into my future. Reading other peoples journals has inspired me to try one for my own. Perhaps I can lose weight and find the inner me. It is time to feed my soul not my body.
    View my complete profile

    . : Recent Posts : .

    THOSE MEAN SCALES
    ROTTEN BLOGGER
    FESS UP
    WEIGH IN
    RATUS INVADUS!!!
    AEROBIC COORDINATION....OR LACK OF???
    COMPLIMENTS
    THIS WEEKS EXERCISE
    The walk was around Albert park Lake. There were f...
    Had a great time at the Walk for Diabetes walk thi...

    . : Archives : .

    April 2005
    May 2005
    June 2005
    July 2005
    August 2005
    September 2005
    October 2005
    November 2005
    December 2005
    January 2006
    February 2006
    March 2006
    April 2006
    May 2006
    June 2006
    July 2006
    August 2006
    September 2006
    October 2006
    November 2006
    December 2006
    January 2007
    February 2007
    March 2007
    April 2007
    August 2008

    . : : .

    . : CHALLENGES: .

    MELBOURNE 30KM CYCLE OVER WESTGATE BRIDGE DONE

    • WE CAN WALK IT OUT FUNRUN 8KM DONE
    • BOOT CAMP
    • RUN 4 THE KIDS 15KM

    . : My Goals 2007 : .

  • REGAIN WEIGHT LOSS OF 25KG DONE
  • BE UNDER 72 BY HOLIDAY DONE
  • DO NOT BINGE ON HOLIDAY DONE
  • BE UNDER 70 KG DONE DONE
  • BE UNDER 67KG DONE DONE
  • REACH 30kg lost 65.6kg DONE
  • REACH 64.5 BY BIRTHDAY IN MARCH (VIRGIN FAT)

    . : 1000 steps times: .

  • 19/3/06
  • 50 mins car to car
  • 20 mins stair to stair
  • 26/3/06
  • 40 mins car to car
  • 14 mins stair to stair
  • 2/4/06
  • 40 mins arch to arch
  • 14 mins stair to stair
  • 1/7/06
  • 43 mins car to car
  • 13 mins stair to stair

    . : MY FRIENDS : .

    . : Credits : .

    Template By Caz
    Powered by: Blogger


    		•

    Wednesday, October 26, 2005

    P****D OFF!

    Ok I am really cranky now. I know all the things I should be taking on board but it is hard to stay motivated when the scales are mean. I want to throw them out. This week I have done the following exercise; 2 x kickboxing 60 min sessions, 60 min aerobics, 2 x 40 min dancing DVD, 6km walk/run, 2 x 60 min weight training/fitball, 180 min tennis, 1 x 60 min step class, 4 x 60 min interval walking. WWA says I have walked 60 kms this week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! On the eating front I ate over on Sat but every other day only 17 points. And my reward for this is to have the scales go up and stay up.
    Yesterday when I went to my training group I was disappointed to find we were going for a 6km run. I hate running. Of course I walked half of it but very fast and ran the other half. I spoke to the trainer who said I am not eating enough for all the exercise I am doing. Yes I have known I should eat more but usually I am too scared to. And my tendency would be to eat bad things like biscuits or dare I say chocolate!!! And the fat me doesn't really believe I can lose weight if I eat more. I know I have mentioned this before and I have added a banana every day for the past few weeks but I still have my doubts. And as for the trainer giving me advice well she is young and skinny!! so what does she know???? She told me I am over exercising and then pushes me to come to more of her sessions to get my fitness up!
    Yesterday I went to the gym and had a fitness assessment. Well that is what they called it..but did they measure my fitness and tell me how fit I am so I could feel good about having left the old unfit Michelle behind! NO. They wrote me a program for 2 sessions of weight training a week. When am I supposed to do that!!! They did take my measurements so there will be something to use as a benchmark for any changes that will hopefully occur in the next 6 weeks. BUT people lose weight with very little exercise.
    Then last night at tennis we played and won the first set. Then it rained and we came in.When the rain stopped we went out to continue to find the men on my team had gone home without tellling anyone. So we had to FORFEIT!! SUCH RUDE MEN. The other team were really cranky too and yelled at us. After all when you make the effort to come out at night, travel to courts you expect to play.
    SO YES I am P****D OFF.
    Tomorrow night I go away for 4 days with Ebony, her friend, my sister and her family to our caravan for water activities. Have had major dramas with boat but hopefully I am picking up parts this morning and all will be Ok. Should be alot of fun. BUT of course I am not in the mood for being good and the evil me is entertaining thoughts like "just go away and enjoy yourself and the food." I am NOT exercising today!!
    I KNOW THAT I AM GETTING HEALTHIER, FITTER, YOUNGER, SMALLER IN MEASUREMENTS, I HAVE LOST OVER 20KG, I AM IN THIS FOR THE LONG HAUL. I KNOW ALL THIS...BUT MY EMOTIONS AND MY MOTIVATION WANT INSTANT REWARD EVERY WEEK. THE FAT ME IS STILL THERE AND WANTS ANY EXCUSE TO GET OUT, RELAX AND EAT WHAT SHE WANTS...

    Posted by michelle :: 3:46 pm :: 9 comments

    Post a Comment

    ---------------oOo---------------